Topics: Diabetes, Stroke, Disability, Relationships, Addiction, Gambling, Goals, Positivity and Emotions
I think the best way to describe myself is how my daughter described me to her support group, I just recently turned 50, Sept 5, 2020:
When I was younger (I was just shy of 2 she was 23, now 46) my mom had a couple strokes that left her left side paralyzed , she's shown me throughout my entire life, as long as there's a will, there's a way, and you will find a way to make life work with you instead of against you. That's part of the reason why I've been so strong and pushed through years of pain and dismissal from doctors. She doesn't show how much pain she is in daily (left shoulder perm. dislocated and left knee hyper extends with every step) she relearned how to sit, stand, walk, and ski. even when the world throws her curve balls, she trys to keep positive (she was diagnosed with type 2, then 1 then brittle type 1.5 diabetes - erratic with no patterns in daily levels - within the last 8 years.) She's the reason I won't let Lyme keep me down,even though it hurts so much but we just have to keep fighting.
I am in no way trying to discount how you feel btw. I'm just trying to say stay positive. You will find ways you can interact with your kids the way you are now, waiting for that "how I used to" could be a while and they're only kids once, I don't think your kids would care if they had to slow down a little bit for you to keep up with them. My mom always made it a point to keep moving and stay active (ziplines, horseback riding, tubing on the lake, downhill skiing/racing, bowling.. you name it she's tried it), doesn't like the word can't. if there's one thing i've learned is there's always more than 1 way to get things done and it's not always going to be the fastest or easiest route.